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Sunday, January 15, 2012

Fully Equipped

Last year, I started out the year by reading the Bible in 90 days (you can read about that here.) It was a great experience, one I wished to repeat so I decided to do the same this year.

January 2nd I started full of enthusiasm and ready to go but sometime after the fourth day I started to fall behind.
 1 day behind...
          2 days behind...
                    catch up a little...
                               3 days behind... that's been the pattern for the past week.

On Friday I was discouraged. Not because I am behind... it's the time spent with God, reading and understanding the message of the Bible, that matters most for me. I was discouraged because for days I had been picking up God's word and reading but I wasn't getting anything out of it... I was praying for God to give me something fresh each day but I was struggling to get through the reading. Have you ever been in the place when you know you are just going through the motions? That's exactly where I was on Friday and I was even asking God if I should be doing the 90 day plan. "Maybe you didn't want me to do this, I should just scrap it and start again another time, I can do some other devotional or bible study instead."

Then God showed up.. just in time like he always does.  Right in the midst of my discouragement, as I was struggling through the book of Exodus, he encouraged me.

Before I tell you the passage and how it spoke to me, let me first tell you that I was having a bad week...  it was our first full week back to school after Christmas break and by Tuesday I was ready to call it quits!  I was feeling inadequate as a mom, inadequate as a teacher, I thought that the only thing my kids were learning from me was how to yell.   It was definitely "one of those weeks".  All that was running through my head was "I can't do this anymore."

So back to Friday morning during my time with God, desperate for something else, something new but doubting whether I would find it in Exodus.. in the middle of the chapters where God was giving Moses the requirements for setting up the tabernacle:  "Make an alter for incense... make a bronze basin... take fragrant spices..."  AND THEN....

Chapter 31...
Then the Lord said to Moses, “Look, I have specifically chosen Bezalel son of Uri, grandson of Hur, of the tribe of Judah. I have filled him with the Spirit of God, giving him great wisdom, ability, and expertise in all kinds of crafts. He is a master craftsman, expert in working with gold, silver, and bronze. He is skilled in engraving and mounting gemstones and in carving wood. He is a master at every craft! “And I have personally appointed Oholiab son of Ahisamach, of the tribe of Dan, to be his assistant. Moreover, I have given special skill to all the gifted craftsmen so they can make all the things I have commanded you to make."

It was GOD that appointed these men and GOD who equipped these men.  GOD gave them the wisdom, ability and expertise.. HE has gifted them.

I heard God loud and clear...

               "I have appointed you, Rusheika to be the mother of these children.  I have appointed you to teach them.   AND  I have equipped you to do just that. 
                                                  Trust me... follow me...      
                                                                 so you can do the things I have commanded you to do."


  1. Oh yes oh yes... wow. Thank you God for meeting Rusheika in the midst of feeling overwhelmed and ready to quit.

    The parts you underlined were also ones that I had underlined. Because this mom feels all those same things you felt - and He has equipped you. He has equipped me. Wow. that is good.
    Thank you for sharing your heart.
    This is beautiful!

  2. Yes, God calls and He equips those he calls. Amazing how Old Testament scripture STILL applies to us today!

  3. That's wonderful! I am behind too. I've tried B90Days once before, when I fell behind, I gave up. I'm behind now, but this time I AM NOT GIVING UP! I may not finish in 90 days, but I"m sure going to TRY!

    1. Yes Sonita.. don't give up. I have a friend that started with me last year and she did not give up.. she finished months later and she celebrated her accomplishment! It's more about reading and getting into God's word than days and weeks and months. Having said that I will pray that you and I will both be disciplined to get on with it!!!

  4. So wonderful that God met you right at your point of need Rusheika and whispered his healing words right into your hurting heart. God is good. All the time.

  5. Oh, that was me, Karen... one of those doing the B90Days with you! :)


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